13 weeks preggo.

I feel like I have a little more to update this week than last. So, I mentioned in my last post that it turned out that I was a carrier for CF and we were going to have Morgan tested. Well, he went to his appointment and of course, it's not covered by insurance. So, we came to the conclusion of just not going through with the testing. On Friday, Morgan's parents graciously offered to pay for the testing so that we could find peace of mind with the whole situation. I am still 50/50 on it, possibly leaning more towards not finding out. I feel like I have semi come to terms with our baby having the chance of having CF. However, Morgan's friend, his wife has CF and they suggested that we find out. While finding out now isn't going to change anything for the baby we have brewing in the belly, it may change things for the future when we think about having more kids. If Morgan is a CF carrier, we may rethink having additional kids. I think that since the test is graciously being paid for, we may as well take advantage of it. If it turns out that Morgan is a carrier, we can research more on CF, educate ourselves a little more and prepare as much as possible for what may be. And if he is not, we breathe a sigh of relief.

We had our nuchal translucency test on Friday. I do have to admit that I was pretty nervous going into it. We were referred out to a special testing office that would do all the testing for us. We got in the room and they got right to work. They put the thing on my abdomen and I saw the baby up on the screen (they had a TV on the wall for you to see what was going on) immediately.. and at first I did not see any movement and of course, got nervous. But, all of sudden, we both saw these arms just moving all around, the head moving up and down and the legs kicking back and forth. It was absolutely amazing and both Morgan and I sat there with our bottom jaw to the ground. The nurse was asking questions and I couldn't even answer because I was simply so amazed by what I saw on the screen. I thought that seeing a little heartbeat at 6.4 weeks was exciting - this was just amazing. For the first time, we saw what actually looked like a baby and saw movement and could actually tell what the movement was (ie: arm, leg or head movement). I think we were both shocked and weren't expecting what we saw.

The doc came in after the sonographer finished and she said that everything looked great! I asked what the measurement was and she said it was 1.1, which, from my research, seems really good (however, now I am wondering if it measured too small for 13 weeks?). Either way, they drew blood and will come up with actual risk ratio and call me on Tuesday with the results. They do a combination of measurements, my age and my blood results. If I remember correctly, she said the baby measured in at about 6.7cm (ultrasound said 7.3 so I am not sure what to believe) and if I remember correctly, the heartbeat was around 158.

We received more great news from my appointment; the doctor said that she could not find my subchorionic hemorrhage!! This is great news. With the massive amounts of brown blood I was passing, I was hopeful that it meant that my clot was resolving itself, but it looks like it did! I am not 100% sure that it is gone, but the fact that she did not see one and they look for any kind of abnormalities on the ultrasound, I think we are in the green :) This is a huge sigh of relief for us.

Up until Friday, I was having a pretty hard time accepting the pregnancy as real and that the baby really was going to come. I also struggled with connecting with the baby growing inside of me because I was so afraid that we were going to lose it that I was constantly preparing myself for the worst. However, when we saw that little bean moving around like crazy, I found myself immediately protective of this little human developing. I have this new found sense of excitement about the baby and it all seems a lot more real to me that we will be mom and dad to more than 4 fur kids in about 6 months time! I can't wait until my next ultrasound appointment. Also, can't wait until we hear the heartbeat for the first time since we haven't been able to do that yet!

What is great is this perfect timing. Today is my 29th birthday and it is also my milestone of making it to the 2nd trimester! What a great birthday present that is.

Also, above are the two pictures from the ultrasound on Friday. The first one is belly down (how the baby was laying throughout the ultrasound) and you can see the little legs and possibly an arm (and what a belly!). The second picture is a shot front-on of the face (head to the right). It looks very alien-like, my, what a huge forehead you have! If you turn your head to the right you can make it out a little better.

See you next week.

xo, mommy to be.